Tuesday, November 12, 2019


Hollywood is a mirror - of the state of affairs in the US of A. In golden eras, it reflected the rich, fulfilled life. Now it will churn out more fiction that reflects their reality. It'll get bleaker & bleaker over time. It'll show. It won't be the same ever again. Only downhill from here .

Easy Filter

This is an easy filter, Diary. Anyone who likes anything about the total piece of crap Joker, legitimately the worst film I've watched in my life, is written off. It doesn't make me angry or anything, it doesn't even aggravate me. I'm just immensely annoyed and disappointed. The hype & popularity of this showed me how bad it is "out there".

The island of sanity is beaten and encroached by waves of idiocy all of the time. 

I don't know how much self-stroking or self-pity these pieces of shit garbage need to move on with their life, but it's clear that they're miserable now. Karma. Great. 

Monday, November 11, 2019


I cannot again .

Irreversible Trend


There is no need to reverse, but much for alternation . 

Timeline -


Friday, November 8, 2019

Coastal Hibernation

Well? Do you think it's real?

- 1900  Fiction

1900 -  Science

Wednesday, November 6, 2019

Tuesday, November 5, 2019

Inter - interface - 0

It sends me into a little panic attack to think others might also have these banks. I should expect the worst, but I don't think it's likely.

Also, I hate how I let little things get to me.

This has got to stop.

Monday, November 4, 2019

Don't eat

It has just occurred to me, of course this should be custom. I can't believe I haven't figured it out after 20 something years.

If you eat 1 meal per day and can sustain for 27 hours which fucks up your cycle, shouldn't you fucking even reduce on that basis to try and get something resembling a normal day of life?

I totally should eat 1 meal every 2 days. This is evolution. This has to be evolution. How else do you explain this. I haven't eaten all day today and I feel great. I'm focused and full of energy. Not like other nights where I can just feel I'm spending too much to process food. Spending too much energy to produce energy...? It's weird.

Anyway. It's clear that I don't need to eat every day. If I eat every 2 days, maybe I'll actually get tired at night like a normal person. The sun and earth aren't going to change for me, you know. I have to... I have to adapt to them. No complaint about that.

It is a mystery, though, because even on paper the math doesn't even make sense. It doesn't add up. How can a person live like this? Next level stuff.

I'm about to fuck off somewhere else in a month, Diary. That place is a lot colder, as far as I know. I guess I should be embarrassed by how little I know, but I really don't have time for it now.

Sunday, November 3, 2019

I honestly think I'm actually retarded

I've never met a more fragile person, Oh My God .

I have to think of a way to discipline myself. Pending capital punishment.