Tuesday, November 26, 2019

Why Do I Have So Much In Common W/ Women Over 45 -

I don't understand .
I need introspection .

I don't know if it'll be sincere or authentic .

I do know, actually - eventually, yes.

I don't know when.

I believe I'm making the correct decision.

Freaky Netflix Showz

I've re-subscribed to Netflix bc I need to know how fucked up it is out there. News and articles don't provide enough visual stimulation.

It's these freaky Netflix shows taking place in other countries. Essentially THE SAME SHOW packaged in different languagez, not even aesthetics even though they're filmed in totally different locations. "Exclusive schools" in Italy and Spain. OK. They're determined in ruining Europe. I'm talking about "Elite" & "Baby". Both produced in 2018. Literally gross & mis-representing. People in "exclusive schools" anywhere mainly speak English. They're the most conforming in globalist ideal. The similarity of these shows however reflect none of that.

These shows feel very American. I know it sounds like I'm contradicting myself but I'm not. The globalist view is NOT the American view. It's bigger than that. It should feel both globalist & Italy/Spain at the same time, if the director really cares. Instead it just feels like American even though people speak different languages. They have the SAME kind of aesthetics and shots and sex scenes as any plain show set in California. I fucking hate the sex scenes. None of it is sexy. It's just gratuitous. I don't know who's getting off on that. At this point most if not all (I haven't watched all obviously but 100% of what I've watched recently) shows made by US companies have no real plot. No real plot at all. It's always the same things.

It just angers me because I've lived in Spain long enough to know that it's not like that. I don't know why the fuck it has to describe itself this way. This is not how things work in Spain. This is not what Spain looks like. This is not how Spaniards behave. They're not like that. It doesn't capture the essence of this country or these people AT ALL. It's honestly so infuriating. Spain is NOT ABOUT THAT.

Netflix is such an abomination. It advances a proper agenda (I just talked about) in SUCH artless and tactless form that I almost question if it undermines it at the same time. It's intolerable. I have to know how bad it is. I don't want to give them a cent either, Diary. I don't want them to see this as a form of encouragement to churn out more thoughtless crap. It's also not worth my time to learn about new shows and torrent. It is ALL very off-putting.

I don't know who in their right mind would want to go to Japan long term (more than 1 month) after watching Terrace House. You've gotta be wondering "Oh wow how the fuck do them snowflakes survive even". Had I watched this show, I would've not gone. I didn't, and I did, and I'm grateful. And it's real. I didn't learn from these horrendous show but it's true. I learned it from real life that Japanese people are twisted like that. No.

All of this makes me not want to interact with any of these people. I'm glad the agenda is being pushed forward all of the time so I have the choice. Let these joy hippies mingle in the city. I will settle where I can enjoy solitude and peace. It's great. We're helping each other. Definitely different crowds. We're distinctly different people with a shared purpose. I like that. I will live in the countryside and they will live in the city. It's cool arrangement. The agenda must be fulfilled for both of our sides to enjoy life. Cool.

Monday, November 25, 2019

The future they're fighting for

... is the Freedom to be whoever you want - whoever you truly are. It's Real Freedom.

A Pakistani can have a Christian lifestyle in the foot of the Alps, a Swede can own a large plot of land and practice occultism in Montana, people born in Saudi Arabia are free to live in jungles of Southeast Asia, desert Australians are free to live in the rainy Pacific Northwest. Some already do but it needs to be made more available and accepted- for all people. Abolish all borders and the concept of "Nations".

It's truly a great ideal. It's foolish to designate a swath of land that can only contain one people and one way of life. "Culture". We know Culture can be freely adopted. People should have total freedom of movement. Chaos will erupt all the while as people fight to get there, and when they get there, surely it will still be a chaotic paradise. There will be more conflicts- but people will find their true partners.

I do not want to fight as one people or one nation. I want to flight alongside those whom I CHOOSE.

Choice is too important.

Sunday, November 24, 2019

casa eceiza cigarrillos

So delicious 

Why does it matter ?

It does not .

I'm sorry .

Ikea Sitcom

 n o

Monday, November 18, 2019

Friday, November 15, 2019

Tuesday, November 12, 2019


Hollywood is a mirror - of the state of affairs in the US of A. In golden eras, it reflected the rich, fulfilled life. Now it will churn out more fiction that reflects their reality. It'll get bleaker & bleaker over time. It'll show. It won't be the same ever again. Only downhill from here .

Easy Filter

This is an easy filter, Diary. Anyone who likes anything about the total piece of crap Joker, legitimately the worst film I've watched in my life, is written off. It doesn't make me angry or anything, it doesn't even aggravate me. I'm just immensely annoyed and disappointed. The hype & popularity of this showed me how bad it is "out there".

The island of sanity is beaten and encroached by waves of idiocy all of the time. 

I don't know how much self-stroking or self-pity these pieces of shit garbage need to move on with their life, but it's clear that they're miserable now. Karma. Great. 

Monday, November 11, 2019


I cannot again .

Irreversible Trend


There is no need to reverse, but much for alternation . 

Timeline -


Friday, November 8, 2019

Coastal Hibernation

Well? Do you think it's real?

- 1900  Fiction

1900 -  Science

Wednesday, November 6, 2019

Tuesday, November 5, 2019

Inter - interface - 0

It sends me into a little panic attack to think others might also have these banks. I should expect the worst, but I don't think it's likely.

Also, I hate how I let little things get to me.

This has got to stop.

Monday, November 4, 2019

Don't eat

It has just occurred to me, of course this should be custom. I can't believe I haven't figured it out after 20 something years.

If you eat 1 meal per day and can sustain for 27 hours which fucks up your cycle, shouldn't you fucking even reduce on that basis to try and get something resembling a normal day of life?

I totally should eat 1 meal every 2 days. This is evolution. This has to be evolution. How else do you explain this. I haven't eaten all day today and I feel great. I'm focused and full of energy. Not like other nights where I can just feel I'm spending too much to process food. Spending too much energy to produce energy...? It's weird.

Anyway. It's clear that I don't need to eat every day. If I eat every 2 days, maybe I'll actually get tired at night like a normal person. The sun and earth aren't going to change for me, you know. I have to... I have to adapt to them. No complaint about that.

It is a mystery, though, because even on paper the math doesn't even make sense. It doesn't add up. How can a person live like this? Next level stuff.

I'm about to fuck off somewhere else in a month, Diary. That place is a lot colder, as far as I know. I guess I should be embarrassed by how little I know, but I really don't have time for it now.

Sunday, November 3, 2019

I honestly think I'm actually retarded

I've never met a more fragile person, Oh My God .

I have to think of a way to discipline myself. Pending capital punishment.

Saturday, November 2, 2019

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