Sunday, April 14, 2019


If today has taught me anything, it's insanity. I don't want to look into people's lives anymore. I know how polarized people are nowadays. There is absolutely no use for the majority of them. I don't have to force any relatability anymore. It's not necessary.

I used to think about the 1% problem, and it is this- it is still too large a number. The 1% of 1% of 1%- sounds about right, and next problem is- this 1% of 1% of 1%- don't really "congregate". There is no guarantee they're working toward the same goal either, but one can hope so.

I wore sneakers today, and though my feet felt nothing walking 2 hrs 30 mins straight, boy did I feel like a chump. Let's try the other ones next. Also I found something I wrote on the internet that's kind of embarrassing to read now. The thing is, I don't have time to go back and correct anything. Life is a moving train, you can throw your garbage out of the window and "put it behind us", but others will still be able to see it when they forage for information in the grass. OK that's a bit... you know what I mean.

The best is still to think twice or thrice before you do anything, as I always do, but even so, I create absolute trash sometimes. I'm OK with it. I can do better, that's all.

I do still observe commonalities among us, me and people, I mean. But just like humans share >90% DNA with chimps and bonobos, I now know those commonalities won't do anything. I don't have to suffer at the ignorance of others - I probably still will, but in a large sense, I won't have to - I won't inflict such damage on myself by hoping it's going to be different. It's not. I don't feel sorry when they're lied to, there is no need. I don't have to hope any of them show initiative, all that matters is I show initiative. It really is the End Game .

It feels a lil insane. Just a little. I can cope with it.

The public space will be filled with ignorant people, who are not allowed to be brought up to date. If one is truly curious, one can find out about anything and everything, but people won't want to. I never understood that. It's not important now. My mission isn't to understand them.

I know a lot of people have realized this way before me, age wise. They demonstrated to me years ago. I've been preoccupied with caring about people. I was wrong. I am late. I know that. I also know I can make up for it. Was I- is anyone better off not knowing the problem of the people? No... not necessarily. I'd like to know why. I always need to know why. Now I do.

The world really is too small, and the learning curve too steep. I expect an ignorant person to suddenly change everything once he decides to stop being ignorant. He can, because now he has the tools. It's wonderful. There is some curve I have to climb as well. I don't know what or who is on top of that curve. Every day I'm blown away by how stupid some people are- when they're not supposed to be, in my knowledge. Not so often blown away by how wise someone is. Maybe once or twice a year.

Let's focus on ourselves, Diary .

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