"Insanity" is such a blanket term. There is such time when a sane man goes insane and stays partly sane and partly insane - what do you call that? Their relationship is- the insanity covers the sanity like some sort of Ferrero arrangement- or insanity follows sanity follows insanity like some sort of loop- or maybe they occur at the exact same time - I don't know. I just know insanity has officially and probably permanently become a part of my life.
I'm not ready to say "goodbye" yet .
I need to save myself. I need to save my sanity. I need to stay sane. I can't have this "partly sane, partly insane" state of mind. I'll be ruined. I'll be damned. Damn. I've always been damned, haven't I?