Monday, June 11, 2018

How to eat 4 baguettes

I ordered 1 baguette and Carrefour sent me 4. I don't know why. It's impossible. I will have to give them out to the homeless won't I? There is no telling how many baguettes Carrefour has- in the thousands. I bet they made too much.

That doesn't explain why they gave me an extra bottle of milk tho. But this always happens, sometimes something is missing in which case I have to let them know to get it the next day, sometimes some items are wrong and if it's OK I'll keep it and sometimes things break and if I don't care anymore I let it slip. Nothing is exact. I don't know how it is in other countries. I don't care.

No Diary listen. I hate all E3 trailers and the games. They're so dull like OMG I can't believe it. It's the same thing over and over again. There are only 2 games in the world- the medieval one and the post-apocalypse one. You either shoot guns or hack with sword or release laser or some other colorful bright particles Unity/Unreal let's you generate. I don't know why they bother having different studios anymore. There is no difference. They make no difference. And the players don't get bored. I mean this really covers all of gaming besides kiddie cartoon indie - card game like MTG or any MMO. They could literally all take place in the same world (2 in total). It's the same dull-ass gameplay - I can't believe how far... and what gaming has devolved into. Like I said all the VR&AR shit has not matured, so I have nothing. I have nothing, Diary. I can't take it anymore. Once again I'm left with no distraction, not even hope for some distraction. Civ now feels painful, because it's random and buggy and inaccurate and in an another sense, not random enough. This whole thing just sucks.

You know what I've been catching up on news in my homeland recently and someone popped up in my head today and now I've given up on that. It's easy to enjoy masturbatory thoughts that things are getting better, but let's get real. I hated everybody I met and I honestly dislike that country. I'm not going to delude myself any longer. That place sucks which is why I left the first chance I got. I don't know why I would engage in any sort of... no. I'm done.

I'm so done, Diary. What is left in my life anymore, as a normal human being, I mean. Nothing. I know God intends to keep me focused, but I have  to deal with this... I have to get used to it.

I have to . I don't know how .


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