I thought about it last year and I had my hands full. I still have my hands full but I really want to do this. I know you don't think I'm cut out for it, Diary. It doesn't look like it, I know. But I want to play it, desperately. I desperately want to play it. What if I'm a natural. This is the only sport that can get me all fired up. It's so rich. I never felt like rooting for any football player or anyone in the Olympics for that matter, but this is so different. I feel like each one is his/her own person and there is no national interest or anything like that behind it. Well I don't know what they say about Russia but that's that.
If I'm going to train, I'm going to train with absolutely entering the competition one day in mind. How can I look away when there is something that draws me in so much, Diary. I can't.
Again "how" becomes a problem. I don't need to join any club for now, I don't even need a suit of armor. I can just start. Still some things need to be worked out.
But for real though.