Tuesday, November 7, 2017
Everything after school is unclear which is probably why I keep having dreams set in school, I guess. Like there is a social order, but it's unclear. You're not confined in an environment. You're in the big wide world with all the people in all the continents. When in school it literally feels like it's those who you interact with that mattered. Like you're aware of what's out there but you're so preoccupied with whatever that's happening in school.
Now there's all sorts of things it's too much. I don't mean I can't handle I mean it's good it's wonderful there are so many things but it's Unclear, you know?
I'll never know who matters. Who's there. Not many people are close to me. I wonder... I wonder if it's the biggest misconception. I wonder if no one has a lot of people close to them, or am I wrong, and it is what they say.
I don't know what it feels like to have many people close to you.
I suppose it's OK to not have a circle to define you. lol yeah ofc, h'when you're not even...
Haha. Looks like I have to get used to it. It's not easy, but I must. They say you're the average of you and your five best friends or something, right, so if it's just you and God, you're half a God... ?
I'm just joking!!!!!!!!!!
This whole post is stupid .