Reading these news makes my head hurt and my eyes red, in a really tired way.
I know the world isn't a friendly place... anymore. I know there is suffering, but is any of it justified? My values clash with others every day, at every moment. I have to reconcile that. I have to stick with objective truth. No emotion can go into this. Sometimes it feels like I'm on the brink of a fall.
Death is a sweet release, but it's the easy way out. I must suffer, and endure. I must suffer a lot. I must suffer the most.
I feel like drowning a spider right now.