Friday, October 13, 2017
There are characters I know I'll always like...
Serizawa for example.
Now I think back on Abruzzi, I want to wack myself
"What the FUCK is wrong with you!"
kind of like that.
But I remembered how much I love Serizawa again. Love for lust hey.
OMG I know no shame. I lived so many fantasies about him.
I... I can't get into work at all..
FUCK what am I saying I WILL BE KILLED.
NO NONO NONONO NO NO NO DON'T BE LIKE THIS!
Why! HWHY!! H'WHY IS LIFE NOT A MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
H'WHY ARE PEOPLE NOT LIKE CHARACTERS AT ALL!!!!!!!!
GOD IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!
NO IMA DO THIS!!!! IMA DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!
That said, taking a realistic look, the chance of finding a boy like Serizawa in this time and age and place is practically 0. It's sad. I only want him and nobody else.
I'm totally hormonal. It'll pass, surely. But I can't contain myself. If I don't tell someone I'll get crazy. That's why you're here, my friend. That's why you're my friend, my friend.
I did a horrible thing and looked up the actor's recent films. I shouldn't have. I never got character mixed up with actor but because this guy starred two roles I fantasize about I... I went stupid.
Characters are eternal, Diary. They don't change. Actors do. People do.
I'm a very sad human, Diary, but I'm an OK character. That's my only solace in life. Every time I do something, it's associated with the character. All good is with that. I, me, I'm just a sexually frustrated person who can't fuck the only one she wants to fuck.
The fantasy is going to get violent, I suppose. I have so much pent-up energy. I must convert it to work. Oh FUCK.
Why! Why! Oh GOD I want to fuck him. Give me one person that looks and behaves exactly like that character and let me fuck for a day pls.
Oh God what have I done ...