How about I let it all out of my chest. I know it's hard to believe but you gotta know I only say the bad stuff so that it leaves all the good impressions. I find it very hard to compliment people, you know this. I struggle to come up with words to describe a good thing. When a thing is bad, it's bad in an elaborate way. But when it's good, I rarely even acknowledge it. But then again, it is also true that nothing good ever lasts so long for me to use a succinct word to describe it.
I am a pessimist, diary. I know I wasn't one when I was 15. Maybe you can tell me when did I become this way.