Thursday, May 11, 2017

BDSM



I never looked into BDSM, didn't think it was "my thing". Yet I learned a whole lot about it today, and something tells me "it's time".

Just like it was time to experiment with lesbianism when I was 20, now it's time to try BDSM. I've always loved roleplaying, and I immediately identified myself as a "Dominatrix", if we have to choose in various roles in BDSM.

I guess this is one of the things that once you learn about them, it sticks with you. I suppose for the next week I'll be wondering if everyone I see is into that sort of thing. Maybe a month, though my interest is not intense. Definitely won't be longer than a month.

I learned about facesitting today. That seems fun. I've only sat on laps and had others sit on my laps before, so I don't know how much of a jump it's going to be.

I guess I had seen strap-on somewhere before, but today is the first day I learned that you can fuck a man with a strap-on. Women have been fucking men with strap-ons for a while, I know. But I just learned about it today. You cannot believe how much of a prude I am. I scrubbed the definition of "dildo" in my head, so I never really knew what it is, just reflectively laugh every once in a while when it appears in jokez.

I am very serious about this. Clearly, it's purely for pleasure and otherwise a meaningless activity, which means time is again of the utmost consideration. I think I can find time to try it once. But, in indefinite future.

Anyway, I want to make it clear that to honor the knowledge about BDSM I learned today, and the sure fact that I will continue exploring it for the next couple of days, I am naming this week the Week of BDSM. It does not mean I have been practicing BDSM all week. Just in case I become "into it" (doubtful) in the future, this is where it starts, but not actual practice.

You know, it also makes me wonder. What does freedom breed? What does liberty, free time, open choice- peace time create for people? What is it to us as a species? These recreations, videogames even, sports- I have gained new appreciation for it- all lack certain seriousness, and I firmly believe we can only progress with that seriousness. Is it true that humans will transcend in times of leisure?

God's graces shine upon us all, and I wish to learn its designs. Oh that's right, by the way. I didn't get Civ: Beyond Earth, but I took a look at its tech tree today. Now get this, it's a mess. Sweet Lord. Third degree connection between bioengineering and genetics design, collaborative thought far apart from swarm intelligence, neural uploading in the field of AI, Artificial Evolution as an outcome for the organics... I'm sure people have extensively criticized this. Have people extensively criticized this?

Now, now. I'll admit that I've only read Bruno Latour and God know who else in college, for a course, but clearly you can't map stuff like this. I know, it's a game, they ain't scientists, but this is like the selling point of the game. This is like, what Civlization is about. It's great that they attempted this, but it's not very exciting is it?

If you read MIT Technology Review, or some other journals whose articles haven't been substituted with lowly Pop-Sci or factoid, you think you'd get a pretty good idea of where we're heading in the future. But no, I have to disagree. I think we are very much in the dark. I... people like me are doing everything in our power to bring about the Outcome. I have faith. I respect those who have faith.

In the face of such profound challenge, such exciting potential and such majestic quest! - how trivial worldly pleasures seem... I may be into what I found today, but I'll skip naked time for the greater role any day.

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New thought: if not to make a baby men and women can totally have sex the same way. Why not. What's weird about a woman fucking a man from behind? Nothing. There is so much misconception about sex even though I don't know much about sex. I'm not a sex expert. All the sex experts sound fake btw.

You'd think there is a learning curve to this thing. No today is my first day being exposed to such concept and these are the conclusions I arrive at. I don't need to make LGBTQABCDthe.rest.of.the.alphabet+ friends or frequent gay lesbian trans drag queer pubs to understand and appreciate these things that's how logic and common sense works. Work. plural.

OK.

(I checked - my face is not sharp enough I still look borderline cute but in no way fierce or sexy so this isn't going to work for me,)





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